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Nov 18, 2021

Elikem’s Corner: November 15, 2018

As I go into this third year, As the days get shorter and the nights get longer, And it gets harder to get out of bed,  I contemplate whether all this was worth it.  Whether it was worth waking up.  My heart hurts and my soul is tired And now I don’t know if I’ll…

Oct 28, 2021

Accountability

I should not have to run through my trauma Tell you the details of my horrors Tell you about the abuse or the death threats Tell you about the numerous assaults Tell you about the suicide attempts or disorders Tell you about the medications and addiction Tell you about the bodies I’ve seen Tell you…

Oct 15, 2021

Ode to E

You deserve to be loved, cherished, and appreciated You deserve the most gentle love An all-encompassing, unconditional love A love that allows you to explore A love that allows you to grow into the woman you were meant to be A love that allows you to take up space   I am so sorry that…

Oct 3, 2021

Yes, I Am Strong

I am just as intimidating as I look.  You see, I am rooted in things that you simply will never understand  And I know that can be difficult for you to grasp  Weak-minded, abusers like yourself  Stuck in the “glory days,” attempting to hold onto the past    And now I know that the sacrifices…

Sep 20, 2021

Waiting on Time

Time has shown me that my existence doesn’t matter That I am nothing but a singular pepper speck in a sea of salt That I am meaningless, worthless, and often irrational  That I am just an angry Black girl filled with emotions that I’m not allowed to have  That maybe, just maybe, life would be…

Sep 2, 2021

I am all of those things

I am all of those things  I am a fragile, scattered, complex waste of space  Who is constantly praying that God will show me grace  And take away my pain Take me away from this Earth  To a place where I can finally rest    I am all of those things  I am exhausted, weary,…

Apr 21, 2021

Elikem’s Corner: Sleep

I didn’t always want this life.  And I’ve fought so hard to maintain.  To stay alive despite it all. I want to be whole. I want to sleep.   I hope and pray that sleep will find me. An internal and everlasting sleep that will carry me through this 21st year, refreshing me from the…

Mar 31, 2021

Elikem’s Corner: Peace

I truly believe good things come in threes Like the trifecta or Holy Trinity  So here are three examples of how you’ve been my peace:    Peace The immediate, instantaneous feeling that rushes through my body whenever you utter your favorite phrase “you know I got you” it was terrifying in the beginning  Despite all…

Mar 17, 2021

Elikem’s Corner: My Love

There’s absolutely nothing that could ever really compare to the feeling of being in your arms The safety and security  You are my fortress, my refuge  Like nothing in the world could ever hurt me when you’re next to me Your warmth consumes me whole Suffocating me with forehead and nose kisses Giggles and that…

Mar 10, 2021

Elikem’s Corner: Screams

CW: self-harm When you don’t have a voice, you’ve got to scream somehow  And I’ve spent these 20 odd years trying to figure out how to scream  Trying to figure out how to breathe  Trying to figure out how to simply exist in this world  Trying to find my voice so I don’t have to scream …

Mar 3, 2021

Elikem’s Corner: Oh How I Miss My Water

You don’t miss your water until your well runs dry all I have left are the pictures The memories that constantly replay in my head An endless loop I can’t seem to escape No matter how hard I try I can’t seem to drink it, sleep it, or sing it away Eventually, I will have…

Feb 28, 2021

28 Pieces of Black History That You May Not Have Known

Elikem Dodor | Editor-In-Chief Ugonna Ezuma-Igwe| Managing Editor Black history is made up of the lived experiences, accomplishments, and other various things of Black people around the world. As Black History Month comes to a close, here are 28 pieces of Black history that you may not have known. These pieces are simply a starting point, a…