Elikem's Corner

Sep 2, 2021

I am all of those things

I am all of those things  I am a fragile, scattered, complex waste of space  Who is constantly praying that God will show me grace  And take away my pain Take me away from this Earth  To a place where I can finally rest    I am all of those things  I am exhausted, weary,…

Apr 28, 2021

Elikem’s Corner: Season

Now.  Now, now, now! Now is my time!  My time to love, laugh and cherish.  To appreciate the long, hard hours.  To rest and recover.  To admire my dedication and handiwork.  To feel warmth and love.  And I do hope that I can channel some of this love to you  That you will never forget…

Apr 21, 2021

Elikem’s Corner: Sleep

I didn’t always want this life.  And I’ve fought so hard to maintain.  To stay alive despite it all. I want to be whole. I want to sleep.   I hope and pray that sleep will find me. An internal and everlasting sleep that will carry me through this 21st year, refreshing me from the…

Apr 7, 2021

Elikem’s Corner: Tombstone

CW: Death   What will you write on my tombstone when they bury me?  When I am finally free from these burdens placed upon me When I can finally rest,  peacefully and far, far, far away from the likes of you     Will you omit the truth?  The parts about your abuse?  The parts…

Mar 31, 2021

Elikem’s Corner: Peace

I truly believe good things come in threes Like the trifecta or Holy Trinity  So here are three examples of how you’ve been my peace:    Peace The immediate, instantaneous feeling that rushes through my body whenever you utter your favorite phrase “you know I got you” it was terrifying in the beginning  Despite all…

Mar 24, 2021

Elikem’s Corner: Home

Home Smells sweet like vanilla Occasionally a whiff of cigarette smoke Sometimes a vape Sometimes it’s just weed Home is About 200 pounds Thick arms and thick thighs The deepest belly button I’ve ever poked And the most beautiful eyes And unkempt hair And a crooked smile Home is The only place I feel safe…

Mar 17, 2021

Elikem’s Corner: My Love

There’s absolutely nothing that could ever really compare to the feeling of being in your arms The safety and security  You are my fortress, my refuge  Like nothing in the world could ever hurt me when you’re next to me Your warmth consumes me whole Suffocating me with forehead and nose kisses Giggles and that…

Mar 10, 2021

Elikem’s Corner: Screams

CW: self-harm When you don’t have a voice, you’ve got to scream somehow  And I’ve spent these 20 odd years trying to figure out how to scream  Trying to figure out how to breathe  Trying to figure out how to simply exist in this world  Trying to find my voice so I don’t have to scream …

Mar 3, 2021

Elikem’s Corner: Oh How I Miss My Water

You don’t miss your water until your well runs dry all I have left are the pictures The memories that constantly replay in my head An endless loop I can’t seem to escape No matter how hard I try I can’t seem to drink it, sleep it, or sing it away Eventually, I will have…

Feb 24, 2021

Elikem’s Corner: I Hope

I loved you so much  And I hope that you can take my love with you  I hope that you can take all of the memories All of the laughs and joy All of the hugs and dances All of the late night convos and quarter life crises   I hope that you know that…

Feb 10, 2021

Elikem’s Corner: Free

I am constantly counting down the days until I am free Arbitrary dates scattered throughout eternity  Truth be told, freedom is never coming  It isn’t meant for me  It isn’t meant for weak, broken, weary souls like mine  If freedom can be acquired through death then I pray that my time comes soon  I am…

Feb 3, 2021

Elikem’s Corner: Many Pieces

I know I am not broken But I still feel shattered, ripped, and scattered  I am still exhausted from trying to piece everything together  Trying to make sense of senseless actions and exclamations  Trying to make sense of the thoughts floating in me Trying to make sense of the scars and bruises  Trying to make…