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Apr 14, 2022

Elikem’s Corner: Interested

You may have had my 21 but you will not get my 22.   22 is about keeping, I am no longer interested in refracting I am no longer interested in entertaining these twisted narratives I am no longer interested in payments and registrations  I am no longer interested in the bruises or the headaches…

Feb 17, 2022

Elikem’s Corner: Ain’t Nothing Better Than You

You were among the first pages of a new chapter  A catalyst for change A breath of fresh air Forcing breath into my lungs Because baby, You are the breath in my lungs,  The air that I need  Filling me with warmth and life  With just enough to feed my desire for more  More life,…

Nov 18, 2021

Elikem’s Corner: November 15, 2018

As I go into this third year, As the days get shorter and the nights get longer, And it gets harder to get out of bed,  I contemplate whether all this was worth it.  Whether it was worth waking up.  My heart hurts and my soul is tired And now I don’t know if I’ll…

Oct 3, 2021

Yes, I Am Strong

I am just as intimidating as I look.  You see, I am rooted in things that you simply will never understand  And I know that can be difficult for you to grasp  Weak-minded, abusers like yourself  Stuck in the “glory days,” attempting to hold onto the past    And now I know that the sacrifices…

Sep 20, 2021

Waiting on Time

Time has shown me that my existence doesn’t matter That I am nothing but a singular pepper speck in a sea of salt That I am meaningless, worthless, and often irrational  That I am just an angry Black girl filled with emotions that I’m not allowed to have  That maybe, just maybe, life would be…

Sep 2, 2021

I am all of those things

I am all of those things  I am a fragile, scattered, complex waste of space  Who is constantly praying that God will show me grace  And take away my pain Take me away from this Earth  To a place where I can finally rest    I am all of those things  I am exhausted, weary,…

Apr 28, 2021

Elikem’s Corner: Season

Now.  Now, now, now! Now is my time!  My time to love, laugh and cherish.  To appreciate the long, hard hours.  To rest and recover.  To admire my dedication and handiwork.  To feel warmth and love.  And I do hope that I can channel some of this love to you  That you will never forget…

Apr 21, 2021

Elikem’s Corner: Sleep

I didn’t always want this life.  And I’ve fought so hard to maintain.  To stay alive despite it all. I want to be whole. I want to sleep.   I hope and pray that sleep will find me. An internal and everlasting sleep that will carry me through this 21st year, refreshing me from the…

Mar 31, 2021

Elikem’s Corner: Peace

I truly believe good things come in threes Like the trifecta or Holy Trinity  So here are three examples of how you’ve been my peace:    Peace The immediate, instantaneous feeling that rushes through my body whenever you utter your favorite phrase “you know I got you” it was terrifying in the beginning  Despite all…

Mar 24, 2021

Elikem’s Corner: Home

Home Smells sweet like vanilla Occasionally a whiff of cigarette smoke Sometimes a vape Sometimes it’s just weed Home is About 200 pounds Thick arms and thick thighs The deepest belly button I’ve ever poked And the most beautiful eyes And unkempt hair And a crooked smile Home is The only place I feel safe…

Mar 10, 2021

Elikem’s Corner: Screams

CW: self-harm When you don’t have a voice, you’ve got to scream somehow  And I’ve spent these 20 odd years trying to figure out how to scream  Trying to figure out how to breathe  Trying to figure out how to simply exist in this world  Trying to find my voice so I don’t have to scream …

Mar 3, 2021

Elikem’s Corner: Oh How I Miss My Water

You don’t miss your water until your well runs dry all I have left are the pictures The memories that constantly replay in my head An endless loop I can’t seem to escape No matter how hard I try I can’t seem to drink it, sleep it, or sing it away Eventually, I will have…